This is Conway-a young Shetland pony who came for starting and just went home a few days ago.  He is owned by a family who loves him a great deal, and especially one little boy who thinks the world of him. 



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Michèle's Blog-thoughts on horses

9 June 2008        

It's hard to swap seasons.  We left a burgeoning summer and settled into winter here in Victoria.  Aside from the rain (though we arrived back in a good solid downpour) it's been a bone-chilling cold.  It's not bad when you're working, but the house is chilly. 

For the moment, though I have some pretty personal thoughts about how I've been working, and I'll put them down in the next week.  But for the moment, I might just post some images from our visit overseas.





above left: Ross rushing against an Arizona sunset.

above right: Me on Cajun, a truly fine horse at the age of 27.  A horse who's an honor to ride.  We're in Harry's arena.

left: Near Scotts Valley, CA on a lovely Andalusian mare named Bella who is loved by her owner Jean.

below: A fine National Show Horse I was privileged to work with in Paso Robles, CA.





below: Some photos from walks near Harry's outside Salome, Arizona.  The desert was in bloom.  A baby barrel cactus was finding its voice and a family grieved for the loss of their mother.  Many respects to this family.  This memorial was on a peak of a hill.  There were many graves and special places out in the desert.  We were always exploring and capturing the desert on camera.
above: Ross and I teaching together in Paso Robles, CA

left:  My wonderful swallow boots made by Al Reynolds in Wickenburg, Arizona.  Thank you Al!


And lastly, Jim and Shea's cat, Sophie, the eternally unsatisfied, and their dog Espy, the perpetually joyful.
June 18, 2008

Tomorrow, Thursday the 19th, I am dedicating to Reggie, a thoroughbred owned by some friends.  Reggie taught me so much about horses, even though I did little with her.  I've fed her nearly every day for the last five years and taught her to feel better about people.  She used to rear and pull and break every halter and every lead rope.  She was a complete outlaw to trim when the farrier came and impossible to catch.  Every bit of that changed over these years and by doing so little, she gave so much.  It might be fair to say that she is one of the very best horses I have ever known and ever will know.  She is getting put down in the morning because her ringbone is so severe she can hardly walk anymore and is in constant, terrible pain despite large doses of bute every day.  It will be a blessing that she is out of pain at last, but I will miss her so much every day.  I'll never forget her.

Below is a part bred Morgan filly-mostly full bred, she has about a quarter Arab in her.  She's in work for ground handling.  She is a horse with whom you cannot afford to get it wrong.  Pretty nice horse, but has a very strong sense of will and survival, more than most you'll run across.  I worked her off Birch Sunday and Tuesday since she'll clean you up and sweep the floor with you on the ground.  Birch wasn't too fond of her, but she hung in there was a champion.  Here we are just having a quiet moment, and also working on hindquarter yields.  The filly did really well today and I was proud of her.  I am pleased with her progress.  In three days she has made some dramatic changes and is feeling a lot better.
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28 June 2008

First of all, I noticed Ross used the same picture of me and Birch in his own blog.  Can't blame him.  She is a super-star!

I was watching (kind of scanning) a DVD somebody loaned us of a trainer who works here in Australia, and it raised quite a few questions in my mind.  Here are a couple.

There was a lot of talk about the human-horse relationship as a predator-prey relationship.  I have a hard time understanding how we persist in this thought.  I do work with a philosophy that a horse has to live through whatever life approaches him with.  We all do, though in a horse, it is far more highly tuned than our own instincts.  But I can't believe that 99.9% of horses we will see in our lives view us as an animal with a thought to kill them as a wolf or cougar might.  These horses we will most always see are the product of their education, bad or good.  If a horse is hard to catch, is is likely it is because that horse understands that to avoid being caught also prevents the possibility of trouble.  Who was the perpetrator of trouble?  It isn't the horse, I assure you.  If a horse could know that if they are caught life is easily understood, they can offer things and get it right time and time again, they would not be hard to catch.

There was also talk of lateral flexion being an essential tool in the knowledge of any horse.  It did not extend to  the feet, but rather emphasized in his opinion, softness in the poll and neck. This trainer made a show of bending a horse's head to the side and having the horse freeze in this position, fully flexed, either left or right without holding the horse in that position.  One horse in particular executed this free-flexing, I guess you could call it, and then the trainer had a ride.  When he left the horse for a bend, the horse actually bent his head and neck in a hard brace to the opposite direction.  A lot of resistance.  It made me wish I could ask the trainer why he then thought it was essential that the horse could flex his neck.  If he had noticed (and he might have, I can't say) the horse, when holding the flex initially, was not looking at all in the direction he was bending his neck.  This seems critical to me, as well as the feet having a role in all this.  To his credit, this trainer seems like a nice fellow, but I think there are some larger issues at stake here.

There is no purpose to me in bending any horse to do anything if his mind does not follow that suggestion.  Be it on the ground or under saddle, in a halter, side-pull or bridle, when a horse's mind is directed, though seat, reins or legs and your own energy, the horse's mind should follow.  I was talking today with a woman and made the analogy of her name.  If you learn at a very early age that when your name is uttered, you pay attention and there is a reason why you were beckoned, then it is likely that forever onwards, when somebody speaks your name, or even somebody with the same name is called, you will respond.  I would like my hands, seat and legs and energy to be a name to my horse.  That it has a meaning, and I want a horse to know that if he heeds this name, there will be a good reason, and I hope he feels some measure of security when the name is spoken.  Too often, the hands, seat and legs and energy are used capriciously, with little consideration to how a horse is responding; inconsistently, and not taking into account a horse needs to know life is a matter of survival.  If I want a horse to bend and do nothing, or bend until he stops moving his feet, then the change in that horse is in the body only, and not the mind.   I feel to train the body alone is a kind of torture for a horse, because then his mind and body are always in conflict.  Train the mind and the body will follow.

So when the trainer picked up a rein to ask for a right bend, and the horse braced hard to the left instead, the work he did on the ground was confusing for the horse.  There was first no relation to the fact that when the trainer asked something, the horse could find a comfort in it.  There was no door open for communication.  The trainer was doing one thing and the horse was doing something entirely in opposition.  Second, what was started on the ground had no relation to the riding.   To be fair, this horse had less than ten rides on him, but from the first ride, I would hope there would be some echo of what got started on the ground once I climbed aboard.  For the sake of the horse, everything has to relate-it has to be something he can rely upon to be the same.

I think tomorrow I will take some photos with Ross about where I the conflict lies between this idea of flexing up to the withers and bending through the body with a purpose to follow a directed thought.  I'll try anyhow.  You know how life sometimes gets busy.


Birch and Teddy letting off some steam.  Birch was working a horse and Teddy-well, she just finished an apple!
29 June 2008

Well, had a thought while I was cleaning paddocks.  It followed a conversation I had with a client earlier this morning.  I was working an 11  year old Arab mare who was started some years ago and had less than 10 rides on her by the owner.  She had reached a point where she felt something wasn't right and didn't know who to ask, so she put the mare in the paddock and had not ridden her since.  I have spent two sessions with the horse and I told the client that I felt she did the right thing.  She was told by the trainer at the time, and found that indeed it was the case, that if she rode the green mare with quite a bit of rein contact, the horse would be fine, but when she dropped the pressure, the horse was in a quandary and did not dare go anywhere.  She would stand still or if pressed, pop up and down a bit on the spot.  The horse hadn't a clue what to do if a hold wasn't taken.  This is a pretty sensitive and highly intelligent horse, so it leads you to wonder what could have been if the trainer had allowed the horse to find answers for herself.  It's like asking a person, who's never been allowed to express their opinion, "What do you think about all this?" and finding that person at a complete loss and concerned.  Maybe they might say the wrong thing, after all, every other time they have wanted to offer something, they have been shut out or got into trouble.

But then that got me thinking about how often we criticize a horse for what they are doing.  In my mind, it is more important than anything to understand that a horse is never wrong.  Whatever he is doing at any given moment is the appropriate action for that moment.  I think it's an idea that most people find it hard to get their head around.  If he's crooked on the circle, pounding you into the dust, flying with perfection through her lead changes, bolting helter-skelter into the Prince's Highway or walking across a three acre paddock to meet you, it's all the action he or she needs to be all right.  The more desperate, the fewer options a horse has.  You might say, why on earth would he run right into that fence?  Does it not then beg the question, why were every other option not available for that horse at that time.

In my training, I try in every situation to set it up so the horse has choices.  I allow him to get things wrong, and offer things I might not be after if he's at least offering me options.  If he isn't, I do what I can to encourage him to try something different.  Just so that he can.  So he can experience putting himself out there on a limb and knowing he'll be all right if he tries something new.  You would be amazed how many horses have learned that when a human is involved, that they dare not ever try anything new, even if it means putting themselves through an enormous amount of pressure.  I find that the more confident a horse feels that he can try something and the sky doesn't fall, how quickly they find what you're looking for. 

I don't know how you folks feel out there, but in my experience, I think the notion of allowing a horse to have a say, to work through what's possible and not shut out each and every possibility without knowing the outcome for himself, is a scary concept.  It means stuff might come out you'd rather would keep its ugly head well hidden.  The problem in that, I feel, is that it still resides in that horse, and if pressed, it could become an option at the worst possible time, for both the human and more especially the horse, who will not know what the outcome may be.  Like jumping from a plane and not being sure if the pack on your back is a parachute or just a lot of wadded up nothing.

This little Arab is pretty sweet in the paddock.  She'll come up for a rub, never runs around, tends to be an easy-going lady.  But in the round pen, both yesterday and today, before we even got started, this mare had to move.  I let her go and she was moving in a hurry before I even began working.  She knew, was telling me that a human and this space had a meaning that didn't feel good.  So she had a big flee in her, and t this point will choose to flee and be lost rather than hunt down the human.  You wouldn't see this in the paddock, but there is history in this mare and a tragic understanding that whatever will be required isn't good.  So without doing anything at all, I am the hard spot, and the pen is the rock.  I said to the owner today, my job is to turn what she believes is the rock into the good spot.   Somewhere in her training, damage was done.  The possibility that a human might offer comfort despite asking for something was compromised.  It happens all the time.

Lastly, I was thinking, and I have written on this before, that people often accuse a horse of being naughty or plotting to undermine a show performance or a trail ride.  The day a person comes to a clinic or training and brings a horse who has the ability to display logic, I will call the international bodies of scientific research into animal behavior, because as far as I know, the only animals able to do so are humans and perhaps chimpanzees.  There are probably other great apes as well (here I display my ignorance, I apologize), but I do think horses as well as most of the animal kingdom are unable to intentionally make decisions that will affect others.

If you haven't yet seen this, please do.  It's amazing and beautiful.  It brings tears to my eyes each time I see it.  How sappy am I?  Gives you hope for what is sometimes a very confusing planet:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlfKdbWwruY
Conway's owner has a ride and I am on Teddy all the better to stay on such a small fellow's level!
30 June 2008

Nearly July.  We're past the winter solstice-though that is weird for me, because I grew up with the winter solstice as my birthday.  I miss my family. 

What I was thinking about this evening was the cost of auditing clinics here in Australia.  We have called or e-mailed a few times to various clinic organizers for other trainers or clinicians and have been quoted astronomical sums to fence-sit.  Anywhere from $75-100 a day.  Amazing.  We paid only $30 each a couple of years ago to spend the day watching Ray Hunt, and Harry Whitney only charges $25 and it allows you to be a part of the breakfast and lunch discussions.  We charge $25 for the day and it includes coffee, tea and biscuits any time and we welcome our visitors to sit in with the clinic participants as non-riding participants.  I think the venue is available to promote dialogue about what's going on, to talk about horses and our thoughts.  To ask plenty of questions about what we do, what they do and what they are trying to work out at home.  Anything could be relevant to anybody there.  In addition, it allows folks to come and have a look if they would like to send a horse for training, to have a lesson or come to a future clinic.  Though we encourage people all the time to come and watch if they are investigating a trainer, and it only costs a phone call to see if we're working, a clinic allows people to meet and talk to other folks.  Auditing clinics should never be cost-prohibitive. 

It is so important to check out anybody you will have handling your horse and if you can, see a horse they might have in work that has a similar issue. It helps to put it in perspective.  And if you just need a dose of horse-stuff, we welcome people to come out and just spend an hour or two watching and talking.  All we require are your questions!  It's the horses and other people that help us grow in our understanding of horsemanship.
9 July 2008

First two thank you's.  One to Sarah Bekkers who did work experience with us last week.  Putting up with erratic weather and never complaining, Sarah did a great job.  Thank you for that.  Also, thank to Barbara and Tim Sayer for welcoming us and the clinic group this past weekend.  We had a great time meeting everybody and their horses.

I have a couple of mares in work at the moment that have both suffered similar training issues, I think.  I do say, I think, because my thoughts are based on owner accounts of what happened and how the horses are reacting to things.  One is an Arab mare, 11 years old who I've written about above and the other is a 8 or 9 year old welsh C/Arab cross that has a mind which could conquer the world if she was human, she is so staggeringly smart.  Both have been trained to ignore pressure.  In the Arab's case, it was during her breaking-in, and in the other, though I have suspicions about her start, certainly the riding which was videotaped holds testament to the great deal of rein pressure with which this mare was ridden. 

I guess I'm writing to just illustrate how two very sensitive horses react to the pressure of being asked to respond, and not ignore pressure.  In the pony's case, when I first saw her about a year and a half ago, she was very difficult to stop, and asking her to soften in a bend, soften her racing thoughts, was not possible.  She had been ridden and held hard.  I have helped the owners, her particular owner is a young girl of ten, to chip away at some of the anxiety that cases the mare to want to flee.  What has happened is that the mare has not changed how she feels, just her feet, and this has not helped her wither, so she has begun to escape through the lead rope and the rein, straightening her neck and going.  Since she is built like a Mack truck on legs, it is no easy feat to stop this once it begins on the ground.  There are some other ways to go about it under saddle.  The problem is, this mare can be so responsive and soft in body, that to train her to the rein, rope or leg is sort of a non-issue.  It's trying to get the insides of her feeling better, and the body follows.  I've had some real breakthroughs in the last three sessions, yesterday was notable.  I have tried as best I can to let this horse do whatever she needs to do before I ask much, keeping everything so simple it looks a little like the horse has planned the session.  I guess, you could say, that is true.  The worry that floods out of this mare, who appears blank, emotionless and calculating is upsetting to see.  I think all her life she has been told be here, do this, and the burden of it on such an intelligent and sensitive horse has turned her inside out.

The other mare is a real character.  As I wrote before, the owner was told by the trainer to ride her with hard contact, both in leg and rein after she came home from her breaking-in.  If she did not, and this was the case, the horse would not go, and if pressed, pop up and down on the spot.  Why anybody would start a horse in this way is beyond me.  What I am finding in this horse who is at her core a very steady, confident horse, but one who is in a tizzy about having to find answers when they were once provided despite how fruity the pressure made her.  She really struggles to find a focus, so desperate is she on one hand to block out the pressure and the other to find an answer to it.  I've had three rides now, and I really enjoy this horse.  She made some wonderful changes today, but it has been so long since she was ridden, and so little done at the time, that even having to venture away from another horse in a nearby paddock or the other end of the arena is something we are still working at.  Pretty special horse.

I rode May yesterday and this afternoon.  I don't know that I've ridden her since January or February, so this might have been her sixth and seventh rides for all I know.  Not many.  I wouldn't say she surprised me, but I was proud of her all the same.  She gave it her heart and was great.  When a horse gives you so much, it seems hard to take from them.  There are two words that exist when it comes to horses.  One is "obedient" ("Implies compliance with the demands or requests of one in authority" Merriam-Webster) and the other is "submission" ("Yielding oneself to the authority or will of another" Merriam-Webster).  I struggle with both.  When I work with the pony mare I wrote about above, I see the product of both.  In her mind, I think there is no other place for her to be, and she knows these places.  So where else can she be?  She anticipates so much, is so quietly desperate to avoid whatever she imagines will happen it breaks your heart. 

As I have written before, the more I have the opportunity to work horses, the more I try to imagine how I can set things up for a horse to find his answers.  We often talk about allowing the horse to think it's their idea, but I think there is the possibility for entrapment there.  Can a horse and I truly want the same things?   I don't know.  If a horse wants freedom from pressure and I want a job done-turning a circle can be a job.  Can my more complex mind and his relatively simple one even out to make us both satisfied?  I don't know.   I keep searching for these answers and I may never have them.  In the meanwhile, I am trying to find in my training a place where I keep the word education front and center.
This is a picture my friend Kerryn took of me and May (then Angel) over a year ago.  I went to see if I wanted to take her home.  At the time, she was still very troubled about being caught and handled.  I look at this picture and think, in that bright sun on that summer's day, how could either of us know how the other would work out?  May, I know, had the greater burden.  I have to take my hat off to horses.  They have the purity of true patience and trust where we do not.
11 July 2008

I was just corresponding with a good friend in California who is a horse trainer and clinician as I am.  Also a woman.  Over the last year, we have talked about how selfishness can get in the way of working horses and the relationships you build with your peers.  Both of us have agreed it is hard to understand how jealousy, competition or resentment can get in the way of horses.  I can't exactly speak for my friend, but I have to say, I really cannot understand this.  It seems to affect a lot of woman who are trailers or instructors, and maybe there is some other thing happening there in this very male-dominated world, I don't know.  But that's their deal.  Not mine.  In that respect, I say, let it go.

If you are out there and getting a horse to feel better, really change how he's doing with this whole business of us interfering in her life, well, more power to you.  Whether you are total jerk or sent from above, it shouldn't matter.  The horse matters. 

So why do we fool with horses?  Is it to satisfy our own need to dominate something that is so much more physically powerful and closer to nature than we are?  Is it to win ribbons and awards or races?   To mother something pretty when we have graduated children out of the nest?   Is it to prove that we understand some concept of horsemanship?  To re-awaken a feeling or memory we had as a young person when there was a certain level of invincibility about our attitude towards life?  For fame or publicity?  To boost our ego?  Or maybe, just because we can? 

I know in myself, besides the fact it is how we make a living, that there is a deep satisfaction in the flicker of joy I feel when a horse makes a change.  As horses change in a moment, the joy is brief, but it is there.  I think that is one reason why I work with horses.  I can recall in the past year two times when I felt a kind of hair-raising chill when a horse gave a kind of change that was so thorough, and went all through himself that it thrilled me.  Those moments in training are rare, but the small changes when horse pushes his side across the line, and takes a chance are pretty special.   I know when a horse comes across with a pretty big try, I often have to scramble and make it worth her while, because that's an act of selflessness I will probably never be able to give of myself and I should honor that and not dismiss it.  It makes you feel kind of humble when a horse gives that.

I was saying to my friend that I think when you keep these things in mind, often your own relationships in life become more specific and whittled down because more and more you are functioning at a disadvantage.  It is not, I think, in the nature of people to have a more selfless way of life.  Being selfish is the way of nature.  A horse is a tremendously selfish animal.  He has to be to survive.  But when you work with a horse, I think altruism is the order of the day because you have to convince a very selfish animal to change, so on your end, you have got to give as much as you can to allow her to explore.  Allow her to come to the idea that it is in her best interest to change. 

When that leaks into your personal life, into your interactions with humans, for the most part, it just doesn't work.  I think when you open yourself up like that and allow another person to do a similar exploration, you can get terribly taken advantage of, you can be hurt, or misunderstood.  I don't understand this, but I suppose it is in the nature of humans.  We can plot and plan, we can lie.  We can try to construct situations to our best advantage all the while misleading another. 

I don't know if any of this makes sense.  I do often wonder why I work with horses and their people.  It's the people that we struggle with more than anything because there are always hidden agendas in a person.  A horse couldn't have an ulterior motive if she tried.  It's not possible.  Anyhow, a lot of tailless thoughts and open questions here.

If any of you out there can write and tell my why you work with horses, I'd love to know and love to post your thoughts here.

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